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Hmm

This is an irrelevant post..but if you want to read it, go ahead.

Suddenly, there are One direction spams on my dashboard.

It reminded me of something.

I'm actually starting to appreciate them. I'm not on the level of my friends Czar and Audrey, who fangirl over them.

I'm supposed to hate them, actually. I dont know why. Maybe because I dont like liking things that most people like. I dont like my "interests" being uso or anything. Gah. Im trying not to appreciate them anymore.

 

Told you this is an irrelevant post!

Thoughts

I have this phobia of thinking that I'm annoying to people...or something like that.

I feel like my friends dont like me anymore. As in, they dont want to hang out with me, or they dont want to talk to me anymore. I feel like they're irritated with me or something. I know that I didnt do anything wrong, but I just have that feeling of being so distant to them. I think I annoy them with my ramdom comments on what we talk about. 

I mean, I know I'm overreacting, but whenever they go ahead or leave me in the classroom while they're going to eat, I feel kind of hurt. Well, at least one or two friends wait for me, but the rest...they just leave me. And they dont even talk to me that much anymore.

Yes, I bet while you're reading this you're just like "Wtf she's so maarte". But I'm not, okay? I bet you've experienced this too sometime in your life. Wait...why am I talking to you (hahaha) ? Anyways, I really want to talk to them about it but they just might deny everything or something...i dunno. Or they might say that I'm overreacting and everything that I assumed are false and stuff. But what if they lie? What if they just lie and say that they're just hurrying to get a table, or they want to eat already because they're hungry?

Gah I feel so fricking maarte. 

the religion homework

instead of doing my frigging irrelevant religion homework, i am going to rant here. 

goddamit i am so frigging annoyed with this project. It's supposed to contain a summary of our own baptisms and a message from 2 or 3 of our godparents.

So, religion teacher, how the fudge (i dont want to curse here. i dont know why) are we supposed to create a summary of our baptism when we dont even FRICKING REMEMBER IT? oh my goodness i am so annoyed right now.

and how do you expect us to get a message from 2 of our godparents when half of them are in other countries and the other half dont even remember us? Seriously. My teacher can make better and easier and less irritating homework than this. I dont want to do this project. But for the sake of making my grade retain or become higher, I shall do my project now. 

 

11/29-30/11

I loved this day. Today was a reCUEnion with the CUEties :3 we had so much fun at eastwood. Gah I miss them so much even though I saw them a few hours ago. The bad thing is that I wont get to see them until the CUEsmas party after exams, which is next next week. Sfhdsklfhsd I want to see them again. Today was a fun day. A very fun day. Thank you so much, CUEties! 

11/17-19/11

so these dates are the play dates of Cue Drama Club's adaptation of "Moulin Rouge".

These days were the best days of my life. 

I love cue people. They are so inspirational (ESPECIALLY SIR MIKE!!!!). They taught me so many things. I miss them so much. It's been a week ever since gala night and cast party but i still miss them like fhdaslkfjdsf. I miss all of them even though I saw some of them two days ago. I MISS THEM SO MUCH IT HURTS.

The next time I'll see them is the Christmas party. And that's like, 2/3 weeks from now. :(( I cant take it anymore. Gah. Oh well. See you, Cue!!

 

"I am lost. I am vain. I will never be the same without CUE."

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always CUE?"