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Thoughts

I have this phobia of thinking that I'm annoying to people...or something like that.

I feel like my friends dont like me anymore. As in, they dont want to hang out with me, or they dont want to talk to me anymore. I feel like they're irritated with me or something. I know that I didnt do anything wrong, but I just have that feeling of being so distant to them. I think I annoy them with my ramdom comments on what we talk about. 

I mean, I know I'm overreacting, but whenever they go ahead or leave me in the classroom while they're going to eat, I feel kind of hurt. Well, at least one or two friends wait for me, but the rest...they just leave me. And they dont even talk to me that much anymore.

Yes, I bet while you're reading this you're just like "Wtf she's so maarte". But I'm not, okay? I bet you've experienced this too sometime in your life. Wait...why am I talking to you (hahaha) ? Anyways, I really want to talk to them about it but they just might deny everything or something...i dunno. Or they might say that I'm overreacting and everything that I assumed are false and stuff. But what if they lie? What if they just lie and say that they're just hurrying to get a table, or they want to eat already because they're hungry?

Gah I feel so fricking maarte.